the things ‘ never said……..

" Even if I do, I don’t want to need you ’cause I can’t have you…"
for the longest time, I’m into this feeling of uncertainty, I’m wrapped around with emotions I need to let go but I love to keep..no matter how the winds swept the feelings away still i have it on insde me, in my memories of keeping, i always stay this way because i love the feeling of loving you inspite of not having you..eve. Not because I’m a fool out of love but only because I loved and I will always will…

today I took a walk after my class, my head seemed to give up bcoz’ of so many little concerns i need to face…
i took a deep breath while walking my way home, i see a lot of people passing by, laughing,, eating some goodies and having fun…
i stop and smile…. it’s been a while since i haven’t do that …i miss what it is to be free, free from anxiety and worries..
i moved on my way, lights are across my face, seems so strange for me
but i felt so blue…… incomplete and lonely..

i woke up one morning and found out it’s another day…
another day for a struggle and another day for surviving.
i sat by and looked around, only one  face i see, so innocent and oh so lovely.
such face i always stared thru, full of love and full of hopes, waiting to live his own life
and make waves of his own….

no one has ever conquer what’s deep inside of me,
now, i live a life where i’m only crossing one road and hope not to look back.
i’ve so much of those pains that ’til now rings through.
and i have so much of my broken dreams, i can never let go…
and you were the only one that pushes me towards…

someday i let you understand that things are better of unsaid and undone..
i’m hoping when that day comes you’ll be smiling because you’ve understood.
together with my hopes and prayer’ i’m always working out for the best of you.
i may not be that perfect but i’ll be there every step of your way…
to love you, take care of you and hold you when you’r afraid and when you’re down..

if you looked inside my heart there is that empty space…
a space that will forever be empty, not because i’m not happy.
but because it is a memory of a broken past, vow and even love.
somehow there are things in this life that you can never deny nor forget.
i’m shattered by my weakness yet im praying for my healing…

geling

Waking up with my head in a cloud
Watching the morning come
Another day of the week in a month in a year
In a life that’s come undone

I might as well quit trying
To get you off my mind
I might as well quit hoping
That this heart will heal in time

’cause i can’t brun a bridge that i’m still crossing
And i can’t lose a past that i’m still lost in
I can tell myself it’s over
And make a brand new start
But there’s no such thing as
Mind over matters of the heart

Everyday there’s another attempt
To convince myself you’re gone
Every night there’s a promise i make

That tomorrow i’ll move on
But there’s a voice inside me
That calls your name out loud
A part of my still hopes
To see your face in every crowd

’cause i can’t brun a bridge that i’m still crossing
And i can’t lose a past that i’m still lost in
I can tell myself it’s over
And make a brand new start
But there’s no such thing as
Mind over matters of the heart

I can tell myself it’s over
And make a brand new start
But there’s no such thing as
Mind over matters of the heart…